Most boring post of the year

H's and my posts have increasingly become about ways and means to find happiness. Starting from my age old adage that happiness is a hammock to Her assertions that happiness is a goal that is too difficult to reach, our thoughts have turned more and more to the future and to the darkness shrouding it.

And with the future, comes the difficult question surrounding what one "really" wants from life. Does one follow the path of profit and become a private equity professional, continue in consulting because it is nice and comfortable or even find a new interest in the social sector?

How is this connected to happiness and meaning in life? Well, the two are deeply entangled with no hope in sight to cut through the knots; because deciding the path to take finally boils down to choosing between happiness and purpose, and if one fails to find happiness even after choosing it, because it chooses another, then settle for contentment.

H has often said that he wishes to screw all of this and become his own man, to be father to his own initiative that he can nurture, can see grow from the smallest seed to a full grown oak. However, the problem is one of choice – not between issues that one wishes to solve, or more succinctly, between careers, but between lifestyles – an entrepreneur forever strives to see his business grow, his every though surrounds the fact that his business is encumbered by this or that issue, that his workers have gone on strike, that a client has refused to pay and his cash is being strapped – there is no holiday – and one doesn’t remain one’s master even then. While on the other hand, when one is an employee, one has holidays, atleast officially declared and one can go back to the confines of one’s castle and feel secure in the fact that it might be business as usual in the morning – but one is still not one’s own master eh?

I don’t do this well, I think. I should stop writing about our choices and futures and stick to fiction – so much nicer, to use writing to escape the mundane world, rather than use it as a tool to force your thinking. However, my point is this – whatever one chooses, one first chooses the way one wishes to live – the rules are defined there before going into subtleties of choice of career and the like. All that becomes clear (I hope) once one decides what one wants out of life. That is where one decides between happiness and purpose, or atleast, contentment and purpose. But for all of the choice one can make for peace, for harmony in our own world and for congruency (like in triangles), (now that I’ve got bored writing the post), the dark side shrouds everything.

Peace is a lie, there is only passion,
Through passion, I gain strength,
Through strength, I gain power,
Through power, I gain victory,
Through victory, my chains will be broken,
The force will set me free